"I do not stay in my room all the time and I want to socialize and be active."
"The setting for the infusions is comfortable and the Infusion nurses are exceptionally nice."
" I am less concerned about the opinions of others (meaning those who seem against me) and more interested in making a genuine connection, even for a brief encounter. Before I was afraid of every human contact, looked down a lot, because all human contact has such great potential to hurt me. People hurt me. The people are still there, but it doesn't hurt. I am less fragile and more friendly and interested in other people."
"Internet research said Ketamine would cause a person to pursue 'pleasure-seeking activities.' I didn't know what that might mean; would I suddenly start doing things that hadn't appealed to me before, like gambling? No, I got more satisfaction; felt more productive from the tasks I pursued, and I did more of them."
" I think I am speaking faster than my usual halting, slow pace. Often people would notice that I speak slowly; they look impatient sometimes, like it is a chore to wait for me to get the words out. I remember now that I was trying to line up the words in my mind first before starting to speak - which meant there were often long pauses before I even began speaking. I thought it was a brain injury, maybe. Now I perceive it was likely an overlay of concern about saying the wrong thing or not
being listened to or being misunderstood. The overlay of concern is gone and the speech is more fluid, without second-guessing."
"My voice sounds better to me, more natural. My face looks better to me, more relaxed, less strained, happier."
"Hopeful, safe, enjoying little moments. Finding myself smiling. Better interactions with others. Living instead of just passing time."